Sunday, 10 May 2015


Dear future self,
Tomorrow I turn 16 and I have no idea what to expect. Part of me waits in anticipation of how the day is going to unfold but the other half of me is filled with fear, fear that the day won't live up to whatever unrealistic expectations that I have formed in my head through Disney movies. Part of me also doesn't feel ready to turn 16 and be weighted down by all the choices I have to make in the future about what I want to do with my life and if I could stay 15 for just a little longer until I feel ready to make these decisions I would happily do so, because in a literal sense tomorrow technically DOES decide my future, or help with it anyway because we are doing tests that will give us a list of what to do. The tests themselves are also a mystery, I mean why is everything tomorrow a mystery NOTHING apart from the fact I'm turning 16 is set into concrete. I'm having this fantasy that the test info has been so secretive because the tests are written, but something so different and cool that I can't even put it into words kinda like Divergent, I guess. But if I ever want to discover tomorrows mysteries, if I don't actually go to sleep and let tomorrow finally come. I can't wait to meet you 16 year old self.
Your 15 year old self 

The day started with 6 tests, that are going to determine what careers we should consider, I tried to imagine myself as a teen-dystopian book character taking tests on my 16th Birthday to determine my future but in reality they were just 6 regular tests, nothing amazing or sci-fi about them. Although some of the responses on the career survey were pretty funny I ticked yes for probably at least half of the 88 options so I wouldn't be surprised if the tests came back and said I should be a truck driver (not that I have anything against truck drivers, my dad has a truck licence in fact,  I just don't think its the career option for me).

I didn't know where we were going to dinner because whenever I asked my dad just told me he had booked at butcher's restaurant that had an all you can eat meat buffet, even when he was on the phone to my aunt who believed him. Turns out it was Tepanyaki. The entire restaurant was filled with people celebrating birthdays and the girl across from me who is exactly a year and a day younger got stuck wearing the ridiculous plastic hats and getting covered in eggs also, so at least that made it slightly less embarrassing...

But the biggest surprise of the day was when I got home to find 16 quotes my mum had typed up, laminated and then placed on my bed. At first they seemed a bit random and I couldn't tell how they connected because they ranged from One Direction to Ronald MacDonald. Turns out, each one corresponded to a present that was hidden in a location that connected to the quote if that makes sense:

When you wish upon a star …… Pinocchio
Keep calm and paint your nails

You light up my life
Stars can’t shine without darkness

Life  isn’ t about finding yourself.  Life is about creating  yourself.  George Bernard Shaw

Follow your dreams they know the way
I love reading books! They take you to places you can only dream about …. Imagine that –
                                          Ronald McDonald
Don’t let your dreams just be dreams

When life gives you scraps make a quilt

Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail Ralph Waldo Emerson

  A book is a dream you hold in your hand

Happiness is ……believing in unicorns.

Diamonds are a girls best friend

It’s hip to be square – Huey Lewis

Where words fail music speaks – Hans Christian Andersen

Talent wins games, but teamwork and intelligence wins championships -   Michael Jordan

True friends are like diamonds – bright, beautiful, valuable and always in style  - Nicole Ritchie

Happy girls shine brighter
S’Evader (Escape)

A little thought and a little kindness are often worth more than a great deal of money – John Ruskin

The story of my life – One Direction

T’es La Plus Belle Saison De Ma Vie (You are the most beautiful season of my life)        

So I think I have to agree with my 15 yr old self, it wasn't the day I expected from the phone calls where my cousins sung Happy Birthday accompanied with a dog, to the homemade Birthday cake that actually wasn't mine but the other girls that I ate regardless and wearing a ridiculous Sumo hat and the messages from my friends on facebook and instagram but also in real life,   for better and worst but it will definitely be memorable and in 20 years that's all that really matters. 

Thursday, 29 January 2015

Gold Coast

When she was just a girl,
She expected the world,
But it flew away from her reach,
And bullets catching her teeth.
Life goes on,
It gets so heavy,
The wheel breaks the butterfly.
Every tear, a waterfall.
In the night, the stormy night,
She closed her eyes.
In the night, the stormy night,
Away she flied.

Maybe it was the warm weather and the beautiful beaches or the fact that I was so far away from home that I could forget my problems and enjoy spending time with my family or maybe just maybe it was the fact that in every photo I seem to have I was wearing my ' Welcome to Paradise' T-shirt but everytime I think of my holiday on the Gold Coast the first thing that comes to my mind is the song Paradise by Coldplay or maybe it was just that I got obsessed with this song during my trip and had it on replay the entire trip.

Whatever the reason, it makes sense because I was truly using this trip as a form of escapism.

It wasn't always perfect, for one our 1 hour flight got stuck in the air for three hours due to storms and had to be diverted to Brisbane turning our 1 hour trip into a 7 hour journey but I'm glad we landed safely. 

But in hindsight the good times definitely outweighed the bad including going bodyboarding nearly everday the first week, wrapping everything humanly possible into puffpastry and trying to pass it off as dessert ( timtams, kingston biscuits, cheese, mashmellows which i do not recommend because they melt and go everywhere and cheezels!), going to themeparks and being forced by my cousin to go on rides which she immediately regretted because after she took me on them once I would drag her on the same ride a million times in a row, discovering cinnamon sugar and how amazing it is, getting so scared in the mystery room in Infinity that we had to wait until the next family came in and then waiting even longer because we can't tell if they are just our reflect in the mirror even though there was 6 of them and 3 of us... and i could just keep going on and on because it was that amazing.

Sorry for the hiatus, I have had lots going on in my life recently, but I hope to post more regularly from now on.

Tuesday, 30 December 2014


2014 has come and nearly gone
365 days into this year
And now there are only hours left until 2015,
How will you choose to spend it?

New years eve is always so bitter sweet it's like another year is over and acts as a reminder that your getting older and the school work is getting harder, yet it also serves as a chance for a new beginning and a better year.

New years resolutions don't really work for me as i'm not really sure what i would like to do 'better' and aren't one of those people who writes and comes up with a list every year but this year i have

1. To be happier

This has to be one of the most cliche New Years resolutions ever but now i think about it i have worded it wrong i don't just want to be happier i want to be more positive. I'm not really an optomistic person and everytime i think of positivity it reminds me of camp last year when the instructor kept repeating 'positive vibes' over 1000 times and when he stopped this other girl started doing it and well... It wasn't a very positive experience. That's my problem with being positive i love to complain 😳 maybe i should add not complaining to the growing non-existing list on New years resolutions.

2. To stop worrying

When i'm not complaining i seem to be worrying about something no matter how little and insignificant it is, i seem to have at least 5 worrys a day and now i am already worrying about problems that could happen next year: what if none of my friends are in my classes? What if the work becomes so hard i have to spend all my free time studying? Ok they are some of the more common ones that i feel comfortable putting on my blog others are either too weird or too personal.

So that is my now existing new years resolution list. I hope you enjoy the rest of the last day of the year and especially tonight. I'm probably going to spend it in the surf with my cousins here on the Gold Coast and maybe we might go and watch the fireworks.

This is my last post for 2014, i can't wait to blog again next year. It might be a while though because i'm spending the first day of next year at Wet n wild. Hope to write for you again soon!


Merry Belated Christmas! Yes i know it was days ago but the last couple of days have been so eventful that i haven't had a chance to blog and i only just realised that you can write blog posts on ipads.

So anyway Christmas really didn't feel like Christmas this year, i think it was because of the fact that pretty much every Christmas eve since i was about 5 we would go to my aunt's house for a Christmas eve street party where most of my family was and we would stay there overnight, but this year we went to my grandparent's house.

On Christmas morning i woke up at 4:50 but for some reason it was so dark it felt like it was on 1 am, everyone else in the house was asleep so i decided to watch youtube videos of kids opening there Christmas presents here is one of them.

Then around 8 o clock when everyone was awake i opened all my presents. I got some amazing stuff that i wanted including:

As i have previously mentioned i love minions! I think i might use this next year.

I also really love hello kitty, my dad picked the shirt on the left and my mum picked the shirt on the right.

This is probably my favourite present i am obsessed with these games and can't wait to play this!

I also got a mini air hockey table, some perfume and a handbag.
After we finished opening all our presents we prepared lunch. I have never seen so much food there was ham, turkey, chicken and pavlova and ice cream for dessert. We also had Bon bons and i ended up with about three of those metal puzzle things and a portable chess set.

I spent longer trying to put the pieces back together than i did taking them apart.

We then played the logo boardgame that my aunt got me for Christmas. My dad and my aunt were extremely competitive and my dad kept arguing that my aunt cheated when she won.

My parents and i then drove to the beach where i got to spend an 1 1/2 hours in the surf failing at bodysurfing by the time we returned it was time to get dinner ready. That night after my aunt had left i decided to watch a Christmas movie to keep me in the mood and ended up watching A Christmas tree miracle which is both the most depressing and inspiring Christmas movie I have ever watched. This post is already really long so i won't do a full review but have started writing one that i might post some other time that fully does it justice. In short it follows a year in the life of a family of which is rich until the father loses his job and after getting kicked out of their house end up moving in with a kind old tree farmer who gives his Christmas trees away for free to spread the Christmas spirit.

I hope everyone had an amazing Christmas and are having great holidays wherever in the world you are!

Thursday, 18 December 2014

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas

Can you believe there is less than 10 days till Christmas?

This is how I feel:

The evidence of Christmas is everywhere from music playing in the shops to the lights on the houses and also in my house.

I assembled and painted this house a couple of years ago.

This is my beside table I have used the smaller ornaments that I have to decorate my tiny tree.

This advent calendar is reusable and has a small wooden ornament behind each door :)

 and finally...

I couldn't find a santa hat so these glasses had to do!

On a different note the other day this blog reached a 1000 page views and my instagram account 200 followers! I know these are all small milestones but I appreciate all of my views and followers and never imagined getting even a 100 page views!

Tuesday, 2 December 2014

Filling empty space with words

Have you ever been walking with someone and instantly their is silence you think of something to say yet no words come out? How would you react?

When faced with this situation I freak out and start going off trying to fill the silence with words. It usually starts with " It's really cold today," or " I'm so tired," and then I think of anything I could possibly say because I find it necessary to have a conversation going all the time or else I seem boring or awkward to talk to.

Before this year I never used to question not saying anything I cannot remember if it happened or how frequently it happened but now I know it happens everyday and I always blame myself for not thinking up something to talk about or not having anything interesting to talk about.

But is it just me and it doesn't really matter at all?

The greatest test of friendship is to sit or walk for an hour with a friend and not say a word yet not tire from each others company. 

This quote was written in my Religion classroom (until someone changed it to sit on a friend). This made me realise that perhaps I am overthinking in these situations, if they didn't want to walk with me to class surely they would just walk away. Perhaps silence is more meaningful than saying words with no meaning?

Monday, 24 November 2014

I couldn't come up with anything good to write about... so here is a video of cute puppies

As the title suggests I am lacking ideas, I have tried several ideas but none of them seemed to work so I decided to check instagram where I found this video.

Puppies in Disney costumes accompanied by epic music, what more could you ask for? Ok, maybe a proper blog post about something meaningful again I apologise once I come up with an idea I'll write one.

This video was made by Oh my Disney, Disney's blog which features news, quizzes, gifs, videos and lots of Disney related stuff that I was frequently on while I was supposed to be studying.

This video also reminds me of some of the videos done by The Pet Collective who use cats to recreate Disney and other movies and Tv shows while little kids tell the stories.
Here is their Tangled video.
So I hope you enjoyed this (pointless) post on Disney and cute animals.
Hope you have a nice day,